Hmmm. My brother went off to his boarding school today...and my dad's flying off to china again, away from us, at around 11plus. (which is pretty much soon.)

Somehow I feel a little sad. Our house has gotten slightly more lonely.

Plus tomorrow school's starting again...and I just know that I'd get a shit load of problems. I'm trying to be strong about it, so I'll just take what comes.

My relationships with some of my friends have been quite rocky lately too...just because I've decided that I cannot compromise my principles just for them. It doesn't mean that I'd have to always give in to a certain someone just because her circumstances and principles are different from mine...right....? I don't know. Am I the one being baby-sitted here? or is the other person pushing her luck too far?

I hope that admist all these, I can still find that kindness and courage in my heart to accept others and to go on happily.

Of course, I'm still hoping to find my Perfect Prince... But life just doesn't work that way. I probably wouldn't have time for him too.

Anyways...here's a beautiful song, probably about a girl who is going out with a guy she loves, but he doesn't really love her back. I read a songfic written with this song, it ended on a really sad note.

It starts with this person, standing by somewhere, waiting for the guy to appear. Then the person recollects about the past few months they've been together...How he had asked her to be his, at the airport before she flew off, and how she had agreed immediately in front of their friends. As the days past by, she begins to understand from the start that he is used to seeing other women, and tries to accept that fact. She argues that he would always nuzzle her neck and then tell her later that he loves her. But later on, she realizes that her argument was flawed. He had never once told her he loves her, while looking at her straight in the eyes. She remembers the times he held her in his arms, the times he defended her from others... the times he was always late for their meetings, the times she always smelt perfume belonging to other women on his coat.

It begins to rain.

She stood there, unwilling to move. Thinking, "This is where I told him I'll wait for him, this is where I'll stand."

30 minutes...1hour.... And finally 2 hours.

She begins to break down, cuz as the times passed and the more she thought of it, she realizes that they were never meant to be together. All of the sudden, a sms appears on her phone.

"We're done." -Signed, the guy she was waiting for.

Well. That's all I can remember about the story. It was a short and sad one...I'm not sure if the details are completely right (some are changed in order to hide identities, etc.).

Anyways...here are the lyrics:

Song: Kiss the Rain
Music: Yiruma
Singer for the lyrics: Hienie

I often close my eyes
And I can see you smile
You reach out for my hand
And I'm woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine
It's hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never will

CHORUS
And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I've always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I loved you when
You can't even look me straight in my eyes

VRS 2/3
I've never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there
Yet feel so alone
Aren't you supposed to be
The one to wipe my tears
The one to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still
My reflection is there
I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of you
Is a memory
One that only, exists in my dreams

CHORUS

VRS 4
I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much
To know that I can't do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I'll always love you

VRS 1

So why am I still here in the rain...