Edit: I couldn't find the full song on Imeem. So have a youtube video in the meantime!



Oof. I was woken up very roughly today. Haha.

Thinking about it still gives me smiles... You see, the person who woke me up, was Akito. (the one from Air Gear) I was kinda drowsy and all, fumbling with my handphone as its alarm rang. After I switched the darn thing off, I went back to sleep.

It was then I saw Akito. He...wasn't wearing his eyepatch I think. Yet I knew it was him and not Agito.

"Sakura!" For some weird reason, he was calling me 'sakura'. A name I've not heard someone call in a long time. He laughs, bends over a little and smiles very gently at me. (hyperactive boy, isn't he?) I could feel myself smiling as I watched him. Like all dreams, Akito was speaking very slowly but endearingly. His blue-black hair flowing softly in the breeze. There was this...weird feeling inside of me for a moment. Then he laughed again. (as if he saw through what I was thinking and found it to be amusing)

"Sakura, it's time to wake up..." His voice fades a little. I was puzzled. (and a little hurt that Akito was not getting more screen time in my dream, haha.)

The last part came when he reached out for my hand with his right hand. (his right profile was facing me.) He repeats what he had said, "Time to wake up..." Then he smiles gently again, as if to say 'good morning'.

Then he yanks me up.

My whole body went into auto-drive mode and I nearly flew off the bed. I sat up at such an amazing speed I couldn't believe at first it was my body moving on its own will. Shocking huh? xD

But it was so cool. To have dreamt of Akito like that. (and he was such a sweet boy, it made me melt a little.) Concidentally, I had tennis lessons to attend this morning. Of course, I was sleeping in and was nearly late. So Akito had done me a big favor by waking me up, haha.

If I could see him now, I'll probably give him a kiss on the cheek and thank him. (I cannot emphasize how sweet I think he is.)

"Arigato, Akito-kun."

On a second note, Tennis lesson was fun. After that, my mum and I spoke to my cousin about her relationship with her mother, father and boyfriend etc. It was not because we were being nosy. It just...I don't know. Sometimes I feel that things are falling apart for her, but she does not know how to catch the fragments and piece them back together. So, because she's dear to me, I don't want to see her cry. I hope that in some way we can make it better for her.

It's funny. I mean, I'm not being angsty or emo here. I just got reminded of some things. I was told by my close friend once, that I should give a certain someone a second chance. She told me that he was waiting for me. Even after two years, he was still waiting for me to turn around. I didn't know whether to believe her at first. Lots of excuses came to my mind. Maybe he lied to her or put on an act so that she would tell me what he wanted me to know...maybe he was just pretending to be good but would later on revert to his former self. But the more I told myself, the more strangely empty I felt.

Looking at the current case of someone I know...I've realized that perhaps my journey was rough. But it could have been worse. Her case...is really complicated. That guy was mean to her; he was mean to everyone. He's super possessive, he's kinda weird in his behaviour. He doesn't allow her to have any guy friends because he believes that they're all preying on her. (what? hard to believe...) He cheats on her, but when she even goes near a guy, he makes a big fuss out of it. Sometimes I think of him as a lowlife, the kind of man a woman should never love. He keeps lying and keeps thinking of excuses to shove in her face as he lies.

But still, she loves him. She followed her heart and not her head, accepting him time and time again. I thought that she was crazy. But maybe...maybe I understand a little, after some explaination from her.

I've thought about it. If I was her, if i loved such a horrible man...what would I have done?

I think maybe I would have endured the pain and ripped my heart out. I will stop myself from loving such a person. Even if it means I would never give my love to anybody else in the future, or if I'm left scarred from the experience, I would stop myself from letting him destroy me and everything around me. And if I loved him so, like she did, by stopping him from taking everything for granted, I hope that maybe I can teach him to be a better person.

I don't know. Haha. Maybe I sound silly. But at least, that would be my viewpoint, if I was her.

B-Because I mean...! (I know I don't make sense but...) I mean...sometimes people don't destroy things because they hate them. They destroy things because they loved them. It's so as to prevent the thing or person they love from becoming someone everybody hates. Heck, maybe even the person would even hate himself later on.

Isn't that right...?

I hope that she doesn't throw away all her friends for him. She'll understand someday that it is truly time for that guy to grow up. He's being immature and needs time to think. But with all the irony, HE is the one who is threatening her and saying, "I dunno...I give you time to think on what you've done." In which he was saying that she was fraternizing with other guys.

This is...starting to sound like a stupid soap opera. (bleh)

This is random, but I found myself thinking about ning lately. Maybe it's because eoy is like, next saturday? I was just thinking about how different we are now. I can't seem to fit into her circle of friends either. (I'M TOO WEIRD. only my friends would want me. xD) I don't think she knows that I've missed her. But yeah. I've been missing her for so long. Because...she's my first and only guardian...after all. I'm still waiting for her under a blue sky we once shared, in that same field of flowers. Difference is, she isn't there anymore. I'm pretty sure either one of us, or even both, have moved on.

Now, let's end with a happy thing! Final Fantasy Crisis Core rocks. Seriously. I'm like, head over heels over it. I'm currently listening to Ayaka's 'Why', a theme song in Crisis core. ZACK YOU THE MAN. I'm not done with the game yet, but I already know that Zack is a true hero.

AUGH. I'm so gonna go up to any crisis core cosers this eoy and take a photo with them and make friends and stuff.

And double AUGH. Genesis, Angeal and Sephiroth's past and birth are all so sad. Their world is seriously whacked. (I am in fangirl mode nao.) Can you imagine, I cried for Genesis! (even when he's nuts.) Angeal made me wibble, curl up and die. It was so horrible and sad, watching him die. Even more so when Zack couldn't stop crying and Aerith had to comfort him.

As for Sephiroth...It was just too sudden and weird. (the whole 'hero' to 'villian' thing. Though it is an universal fact that sephiroth is like, one of the best FF villians ever.) I liked him better when he had a sense of humor and gave a small smile every now and then. (wait. did he?) But yeah, he was better when his hair is shorter and he's not trying to destroy the world.

I think Zack is going to die in the end. Judging from various sources and FFVII Advent Children the movie.

Oh shyt. WHHHHY. I don't want Zack to dieeeee.

There's piano tomorrow and I wanna shoot something right now. I better go! Thanks for all who had the patience to hear me rant. xD