residential angel
Name: Shangbel
Age: Supposedly 20(?)
Shangbel is a disillusioned person who thinks she is a she but is not certain. Two of her friends are her mummy and daddy seperately in her crazed world; one is an abusive alcoholic father while the other is a slutmuffin.

She longs for love but is recently being subjected to being slapped by them. Her stepsister feels that their parents are biased towards her and that they love Shangbel more.

This is her story.


undying love
-Kami-sama(:
-Cosplaying
-My Famiglia! <3
-Home
-Manga and anime
-Sweet stuff like Yami-yogurt and donuts
-family
-etc, etc...(lazy to write)


longing for
-love(?) So cliche. Hahaha.
-A new handphone pouch
-Exotic coloured contact lenses
-New costumes
-Complicated costumes
-Good Grades
-A carefree life
-A decisive mind


the whispers


Music Box


blogs
-Haz- Shangbel's mummy
-Sarah- Shangbel's Stepsister
-WanYi- The Empress to my Concubine
-Ning -My beloved guardian
-Geelyn -A good friend
-Min -Forever Friends
-Li sen- The good guy
-Frank
-Feifei -A dearest cousin
-Daniel- A dearest cousin
-Jiale(a.k.a Jade) -A precious friend
-Hannah -She called me the 'dark side'. xD
-Eleanor(a.k.a Elie) -A precious friend

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Friday, December 5, 2008
"Isn't that good enough a reason to live?"






My mind is currently stuck with flashbacks of 'The Sky Crawlers'. Our Hetalia Team went to watch the movie today...and god! I don't know how to describe how I felt towards it.

Personally, I felt the story development moves kinda slow and there's not really a climax. (And for some weird reason, there was a semi-nekkid scene and a quite long kissing scene. But hey! The main character was hot. So I didn't think anybody cared.) Still, I felt that the show was very enchanting. Like it was delving into the depths of my soul and digging something up to show to me.

Basically, there were talks about war, people dying, torn lovers and questions like:
"What are we fighting for?"

And there was this part which was very memorable for me. It was when the main character, Yuichi Kannami, told a senior officer (who had complained about his commander, Suito Kusanagi, for being a 'child' as she is a Kildren.):

"What's the point of growing up...for those who don't know if they would live or die tomorrow?"

Or something like that. I can't remember the exact quote. But it was basically him asking the officer, whether it mattered that they were Kildren or not, since they were pilots in a cruel war who do not know when they might die. If so, what was the point of growing up for them?

I feel that their plight...is rather sad. Perfect Weapons of War. Those who know no rest.

Actually, I've realized that I feel a lot for this movie. The effect was not there as I watched the movie, but it came after it ended. There was a sense of overwhelming sadness coming inside my heart where the movie managed to touch.

And maybe...a tiny sense of helplessness?

Nobody likes war. But as Suito Kusanagi had said, War is inevitable because it gives people a certain sense of reality they need. They need to understand how horrible war is and see people dying, in order to fully appreciate the significance of 'Peace'. So the whole...fighter jets shooting each other down in the movie, was simply a commercial use to show the people what 'war' is like, with the fighter jets fighting for the company they sponsor, Rostock and Leutern.

People are being sacrificed in the movie for such stupid reasons...

I-I feel the pain for them. ;_;

Well, this is a bit of a spoiler... In the end, the main character decides to go against the top-notch Ace pilot of the sky, "The Teacher", and he sorta...well...He didn't make it.

However, due to plot developments up to thus far, he will eventually come back. How? I guess you'll have to watch and see. =)

I added a playlist I gathered on imeem as the music box for now! It's some songs from the show, the Sky Crawlers. Hope you guys who come visit would like it. =)

11:02 PM
Even if the morrow is barren of promises, Nothing shall forestall my return.